Dear Mary
Thank you for your insight and experience. Good not being good enough is not that bad of a habit. But it's easier to be ignorant (or stupid) or mediocre. And for many, that feels right. When I read your comment, a quote instantly popped into my mind:
"It almost always happens that when the immediate consequence is favorable, the ultimate consequences are fatal, and the converse.” - Claude Frédéric Bastiat
I see most of our childhood 'curses' as superpowers later when/if we overcome them.
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Keep the faith!