I once had a deep meaningful conversation with myself. I realized that achiving goals somehow always feels weird (I learned later about the dopamine, and relative depression after achieving a goal. I hated those moment, because those often ruined my blissfulness.

I decided to set my life goal differently. I just wanted to learn, improve, and be better. I realized that way I will never achieve my goal, but could still make my mind to feel good about it.

I like what I did. I heared later that it was similar to Sadhguru’s life goal - to try help as many as possible, which meant he will die an ultimate failure, but still be joyful about it.

It is mostly a less walked path, full of mist, darkness, challenge, and uncertainty.
But I grew to like it, and adore its ‘side effects’. Everytime I turn around and look back, I feel immensely proud of myself.

I still feel I don’t have a clue about most things, but I now see others floating around me and faking it, persuading themselves they know what they are doing.